Demographics and Paranoia

Five million things to do... the top two of which are papers to write. One is due 30 hours from now. I should get started on it.

Back into surfing again, now that the days are longer. I've been out three days in a row now... Friday was awesome... sunny, glassy, and all lefts... good, long, peeling lefts, every single one. Saturday was not as good... but there were still good rides to be had. After a gigantic clean up set (way, way overhead) which almost but didn't get me, I sat out waiting for the next set. This dude paddles up to me and was being chatty. He claims to have got the shoulder of one of the massive waves in the previous set... then it appeared to me that he was trying to pick up... then it became apparent that he was trying to pick up. I like competent longboarders, I do. But I looked at his board and thought it looked a hell of a lot like the board that BNs was riding when he was doing his pick up thing... a different colour... but same, somehow. So I asked what he was riding. And wouldn't you know... it's the same shaper.

There were a few too many similarities... and I just wasn't all that interested in learning that his girlfriend doesn't really like to join him on these surf trips &c &c and so I left. Besides which, I've noticed that the rule is not one chance encounter but two.

A few hours later, I run into him again in town, and he calls me by name while I am trying to remember which of the three generic 35-45 yr old names he said was his. Out of the surf, he had that BNs look of expensive jeans and expensive sunglasses... with an expensive hoodie to complete the super cool forever young yet totally respected old school surfer look. I got an invitation to join him for dinner... but it was a little too casually extended and I was still reacting to his brand of surfboard. Another time, as we're sure to meet again, according to him.

As the evening progressed, I became increasingly paranoid about the possibility that I'm getting a reputation among the surfers who come through the pass on the weekends. All it takes is one story. ULTE2 was in town for a visit, and so I ran the theory by him for his opinion. At first he figures that BNs is probably keeping super quiet, thanks in no small part to my ability to act in ways that easily convince others of my insanity... but then ULTE2 brings up the point that buddies don't tell on eachother... so it is not impossible that he could have mentioned it to this dude on the same make of board... because really, don't all south island surfers know eachother? Of course, ULTE2 was just trying to entertain me, so I was able to quickly forget all about it.

Until this afternoon, that is. ULTE2 and I went out for lunch... and where we chose to eat, there was this other forever young but respected old school surfer dude with really expensive jeans and really expensive sunglasses, who, if he hadn't been wearing a dickie, would have been wearing exactly the sort of expensive hoodie I had in mind earlier... I reacted at first against the over the top coolness... but then I realized that it was more than probable that this very dude is BNs's frater. Blargh.

I was still able to ignore all this... that is, until I got to the beach, parked my car, and got the Britannia out of the trunk. A car pulls up on the opposite side, carrying a couple in wetsuits... and one of the two board on their roof rack was the very board that BNs was riding during the pick up... it might not be that very board, but if it wasn't, it was the exact same make and model, with maybe the serial number a few digits off. Since BNs sold that board last year, it is not impossible that it was that very board.

That's quite a few reminders in such a short weekend.

Forgetting to Think

I recently found and read an old Rolling Stone article on David Foster Wallace. I had suspected that he really is (was) a person who really does (did) live in this world... but reading his work, I could never really be convinced that he lived among us. His insight and generosity had always seemed otherworldly. Read the article...

I haven't had a lot of time to think recently, being super busy with work and school and people. For the first time in my life, I think I'd like to think more, and I don't mean about Kantian deontology or the politics of forgiveness, either.

How about a turtle?

Well... I haven't written in a while. And despite having said, "Yes, I'll write something TODAY!" on Friday... I still haven't. I'm hoping I can get through this posting and actually hit "publish" at the end of it.

So why the silence? Well... I'd like to say that it was because of a request from someone to remove certain bits from here that made me less motivated to write (it involved reading through posts and finding bits and taking them off, which I was entirely willing to do... but reading through these posts is just... well... depressing. Here I am writing crap and leaving it out there... most of it is thoughtless omphaloskeptic junk. Of course, my indulgent friends (Thank you, indulgent friends.) not only do not mind reading crap, but enjoy reading crap so as to keep up with what's been going on with me. Anyway, I never did get around to editing the posts... all I did was find the posts and saved them as drafts so they're not published. So there is still this thing (of editing) that is left me to do... which I don't feel like doing... which has resulted in my not wanting to bother even logging in... but nevermind that. I'm here.)... but really... I have been insanely busy. I'm busy at work (doing my undefined job with its undefined tasks, which I can without any facetiousness say are worthwhile and fascinating)... and I'm busy with school (two courses this semester... one fun one... one totally not fun one, taught by an economist, even though it isn't an economy course... which, btw, I can't stand. At least in the English department, we *admitted* to making shit up... economy is supposedly based on "the rational person"... well... guess what... such person does not exist... we're all driven by guilt and spite and not logic. And we're never going to ever hold 18 things constant to give us an opportunity to tweak the 19th to result in a change in the 20th.)... and I also went away for 10 days over Christmas in Edmonton (mon dieu qu'il faisait froid!) and more recently 8 days in Hawaii (lovely and temperate, as a friend aptly stole from a hack.).

I wanted to see a sea turtle in Hawaii... my god did I ever! The first dive was to YO-257 (95 feet deep shipwrecks) and the second was Turtle Canyon. Definitely the best dives I've ever had (given that I've only ever gone diving in the frigid, zero-visibility waters of Tofino, that's not hard to do)... the locals made fun of my enthusiasm... "visibility sucks!" (it was awesome... could see forever)... "it's not sunny!" (it was like a bright summer day)... "it's too cold!" (you have got to be kidding me!)...

This you see here is a turtle that was hanging out at YO-257... which is a USS Navy Ship that they sank off of Honolulu for the tourist submarines to look at... in the same shipwreck... there were two white tip reef sharks sleeping... which we woke up... oops!

Moving along... I am now still corresponding with t's parents. This is getting a little bit weird... especially since I haven't exchanged a single word with t since New Years Eve... when he sent me a text message saying "Happy New Year!"... and I did the same. But... because I have been so incredibly busy, I haven't had any time to ruminate on its weirdness... which suits me just fine. Except now I'm THREE e-mails behind with his mom... and I'm feeling like I really should get on it.... this is really odd... because I'm one e-mail behind with ULTE2, one e-mail behind with Karen, several e-mails behind with many other friends... and somehow I'm not feeling the urgency of writing to my own long-time friends. Someone please throw something hard and heavy at my head.

Things here are the same as ever... except things do tend to progress despite the total lack of effort. I recently found myself drinking beer and watching television with ULTE1 for two nights in a row. This is excessively strange... given that I neither drink beer nor watch television on my own (so much so, in fact, that he had to explain television to me. You see, when you don't know anything about anything in the world of popular culture... irony is completely lost... and contemporary television is all irony, all the time.).... I ran into him at the parking lot at Cox Bay today. I do not know what is wrong with me... but I just can't be appropriately social with certain people in the parking lot... strangers are fine... I can be super chatty... but ULTE1? I was bordering on rude. I don't know what's wrong with me... but I just can't figure out how to behave in front of his people.... I didn't even really want to acknowledge that I knew him... but that's due entirely to the fact that I don't know his people.... the ones I know are fine... but the ones I don't... I'd sooner pretend I don't know ULTE1 at all... well... I guess it's time for more omphaloskepsis...

I've gotta get to work...