Imported Facebook Note

Wer, wenn ich schriee, hörte mich denn aus der Engel Ordnungen?

Facebook can eat up time... and I've had no time with which to feed this monster for a while now. And seething homicidal rage is also not conducive to expression, unless it be violent and physical.
But here-- I'm back. Decisions have been made, and plans are in place. The domino tiles will tumble. Things are looking up. After reading Jean-Paul Sartre's "Huis clos" on the ferry last month, I managed to get through two books *in* Tofino. These are the first two books I've read within the town limits-- "The Virgin Spy" by Krista Bridge, and "The Inheritance of Loss" by Kiran Desai. Up next is Thomas Pychon's "Gravity's Rainbow," then Dave Egger's "A Heartbreaking Work of Straggering Genius"... and at some point, maybe I'll get back to Vali Nasr's "The Shia Revival."

And maybe I'll even learn German... because aside from the fact that Rilke is super cool (Rilke's got cachet!)... I'm suddenly feeling an overwhelming urge to be able to know German... much like I felt about Russian five years ago... no plans to ever "use" it... I just have to know it... now! and well!

Of course, learning a language is going to be more difficult now that I don't have the encouraging moments of urgency I used to at the airport (what could be better than a perfectly indulgent native speaker who is so grateful for the help that he/she would be willing to accommodate my every linguistic handicap?)... there is no shortage of German speakers in Tofino... but unless I set out with ropes and things to capture one, there will be no help.

I have stopped searching for profundity. The new order is vacuity and insipidity. Misanthropy has been so provoked that passive distaste has turned into active rage... and I've decided that the best way to deal with it is to not... but rather surf more, eat lots of fish, read, and learn to read German.

Wirf aus den Armen die Leere zu den Räumen hinzu, die wir atmen; vielleicht daß die Vögel die erweiterte Luft fühlen mit innigerm Flug.